We (OK Jenn is) are at 19 weeks and found out today that we are having (95%) a girl.  Healthy as far as they can tell and full of energy the way she was moving.

I didn’t really have a preference for the sex of our first child.  We are having more, so no pressure. 

Jenn and I agreed on more boy names than girl.  We actually had the name, if it was going to be a boy.  As for a girl name we are a little less decided.  But we have plenty of time.

 Jenn just bought her first outfit.  A little number with “Mommy’s little girl” on the chest.  I gues I will have to lay my claim as well:)

We don’t have a TV, but watch a little streaming video from abc, nbc,and fox.  Ok so what we really have is a laptop that plays like a TV with less commercials.  I have been lost lately in the Kongregate; mindless games that absorb my life without giving much back.  I want to have my time filled with activities that give back.  So here I am confessing and doing it publicly, kind of, not many readers here.  I will devote more time to blogging, less time on Kongregate.

Before I spent most of my writing energy on G2SRE and less here.  I would like to divide my time up more evenly.  With only 5 months left till we bring our first child into the world I want to have the habits of personal blogging ingrained.  I am so envious of the posts with beautiful pictures I see of my friends children, their lives filled with joy. 

Jenn and I are so happy to have had God open our eyes to him and led us to each other.  We just got back from Ocean Shores for our 2nd anniversary.  We had a blast.  We played Safari in the sand dunes.  Here is Jenn, laughing harder than ever, pretending to be a lion crawling through the grass.

I spent a little time reflecting on our last two years of marriage and what my life was like before.  I had always known that I would marry, someday.  But at the pace that I was going it would have been two weeks after never.  I was absorbed in filling my life with selfish joys.  Hiking, Climbing, Cycling, Ambition, Drive, Perfectionism, Self Esteem, these can all be great things, but it was all I pursued.  Without family what lasting value can those pursuits have. 

Meeting Jesus has changed me and how I look at life in so many ways.  I still do all of the things I used to, moderately, but with “right motives.”  My ultimate focus is more towards God, Family, and Community instead of Me, Me, and some Community.  Every time I take a non-Christian to Mars Hill and Mark preaches Jesus, Marriage, and Babies, I smile deep inside.  Praying for their blinders to be lifted and the light to shine in.